WOW

How things change!

I know it's been forever.

I had a really hard time when my boyfriend left for boot camp. (and it's not all the boohoo, I miss him... although there is that :p)
We did quite a bit of fighting the week or two before he left.
We did talk it all out though. It was all really caused by great amounts of stress.
I was really hard on myself though.
I took waaay too many steps down the wrong path. Hung out with people I shouldn't have, did things I wouldn't have, and thought things I didn't think I ever would.

BUT- I am proud to say, I was able to take a step back, look at myself, and CHANGE.

My boyfriend is making himself and his life better, not only for him, but for US. How dare I not do the same?

I've been talking with him through letters, and his words always lift me up. He really is an amazing person and friend. I'm so lucky to have someone so great.

He is graduating on January 9, 2008. I am planning to fly to San Diego with his mom and sister. I can't wait, it will be a day to remember.

In the other aspects of my life, nothing too terribly exciting. (well, besides all the drama I got involved in.. but I'd like to keep that in the past) I started taking ballet. I love it and hate it at the same time. I think it's beautiful, but it's so hard. (I have a natural turn in, so it's really horrible. :( ) I hope to be on pointe by my studio's June performance, it will take a lot of work, but I will be so proud of it in the end. I also take Competition level (highest at my studio) Jazz and Lyrical. And I take Hiphop and Modern. I love dancing!

Then I work all the time and go to school. The little free time I have after that is spent hanging out. Lately mostly with my friend Elsa (from work and school) and Lindsay (my boyfriend's sister).

Lindsay, Elsa, and Me

Well, my father and I have always been at ends, but we're working things out. He's going to help me while I apply and transfer to a university for next fall. (I can't wait!)
I'm really looking forward to the whole "college experience" even if it's 2 years later than my graduating class.


SO. My point is, I am happy. That's all anyone can ever ask for.

aw, here it goes!

Why did I start this blog? I have no idea.

I guess so I can publish my thoughts. Maybe someone will even read them. :)

Well, to start out, I should tell you about myself. I am 19 and enrolled in community college. I am trying to be accepted into the nursing program at my school, but with my average grades that may take longer than I want. I lost alot of friends after highschool graduation, and it's not so easy to find ones at a nontraditional college. I still go to the church I grew up in, I love it, although there isn't much ministry for me. I am the only one there my age, because I didn't do the traditional move away for school. I starting working for my grandpa at his restaurant when I was 13. He retired and closed it nearly 2 years ago, and I've been working at Braum's Ice Cream and Dairy since. (a job not easy to be proud of). I have a wonderful boyfriend, we have been together for a little over 2 years. He is leaving for Marine boot camp on October 14, 2008. (that's another story) He, along with my best friend, and 2 other friends, are the only people in my life I feel truly care about me. I still live at home, and I do love my family, don't get me wrong, they look out for me, but we just don't have the closest relationship. I'm still trying to figure things out- which just scares me most of the time, but I am a loving and happy person regardless.